I’ve come to realize that I am always behind the camera. I cringe at the thought of having my picture taken, even with my kids. If I do take a picture with one of them I will not post them or share them anywhere. Recently I wanted to get some pictures of my girlfriends and I but I had that nagging voice in my head “you’re not as pretty as they are, not as thin as they are, not good enough to be in a picture”. So I was not in a single picture that night.
You look great, is what I’m told from many people. But I shrug it off as niceties. You see, I started going gray in my early teens and I’ve chosen not to dye them because they’re just so many it’s not worth it. My mom and sister dye their hair and both notice hair loss after they do. So I’d rather have gray hair than no hair. Yet it still is thinning. My gray, thinning and frizzy curls make me hide. I feel huge so I don’t want to see chubby cheeks on camera. And then there’s my crazy pointy long nose. Yeah, no thanks. I’ll leave the selfies to the beauties out there.
I know for a fact that I’m not the only woman out there tearing apart how they look. The extra pounds, sagging skin, the stubborn baby weight that won’t come off, a mole on the face, too short, too tall, too loud and even too quiet. If we could change something about ourselves I’m sure we all would.
We are our own worst critics.
In the next chapter of our Anxiety Bible Study, we are taking a deeper look at what it means to be content with yourself.
“O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.” Psalms 139:1
God knew us before we were even born. He knew what our personality would be, what our body would look like and what our calling would be. He created us perfectly according to His desire.
Instead of complaining about the way you are, trying to change your loud laugh, or becoming an extrovert to fit in, try bursting into praise just as David did over how you were created.
“I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.” Psalms 139:14
There is peace and contentment in knowing you are perfect to God.
You miss your own beauty when you are comparing yourself to others.
Not only did God give you their personality He wanted but He also created your body perfectly.
“My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.” Psalms 139:15
Substance meaning our body. God was not surprised by my pointy nose or your unruly hair.
God saw every detail of the formation of your body. p. 44
How it must break His heart when we tear ourselves apart in the mirror each morning. We telling Him that we dissatisfied with His creation.
It’s no wonder that we women scrutinize ourselves, we have American culture telling us that we need to be a size 0, with tan skin, blond perfectly wavy hair, and don’t forget the thigh gap! Media is shouting so loud in our ears that we drowning out the voice of God whispering that we beautifully and wonderfully made.
God not only created our personalities and bodies but He also created our purpose. He gave us gifts and talents in order to do what He has called us to do. We all can’t do that same job or have the talents. An orchestra wouldn’t sound beautiful if only trumpets played, right? We all have a different calling. We need to learn to embrace our call, our talents, our gifts and stop wishing for someone else’s more glamorous talent.
When I’m not pleased with the talents, gifts, and abilities God gave me, I remind myself that He is the Blessed Controller of all things. If I believe this, I also must believe that God is the Controller of my “all things.” My appearance. My personality. My gifts and talents. In my heart of hearts I long to please God and it pleases Him when I am content with how He created me.p. 46
Finding contentment with yourself is one of the hardest things to conquer. It’s time to shut out the noise of the world. Take control over how you speak to yourself, stop comparing yourself and truly learn to love who God created you to be. He loves you completely and thinks you’re perfect. Embrace that truth today.
“How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!” Psalms 139:17